T- U should be awake right now cause.... No.... strike that... I should have taken advantage of the moment, kicked jamie out and fucked u for what may very well b the last time. But oh well... what can you do? ;)
me-Well now I am! And teh last time I have sex with anyone will be b4 i die. I may not be worth a shit as a boyfriend but I do have some redeming qualities
T-ur so funny... but what a waste to wait til u die my dear...
T-Well till before the moment u die or...?
me-I do have a house to myself... let me tend to the critters and i'll be over
T-I can always count on u to be the dramatic one ;)
T-Wanna come over an watch a movie with me an pretend its simple again?
T-Okie dokie. I hope you like black metal
me-As long as your not refering to the gun lorenwants to shoot me with :)
T-No. I made sure to txt as he was goin to work.
Crisis averted.
Or continued?
An awkward return of items.
Unreasonable protectivness.
Easy when you get told one version.
Back to 'home',
a short couch,
some stinky bitches.
The next morning I awake to the above conversation.
Ex sex is the best.
She comes back.
We watch movies and all is simple.
Drink a lot.
Her secrets revealed.
Yet still talking to me.
She gets pissed I'm tired.
Then she takes a nap.
A mellow night,
in a warm bed.
Saturday.
Jealousy rears its head,
a promised ride denied.
Lucky for her,
I was going down,
to Zombie town!
Bevs and bites,
pillows and blankets,
fake blood and makeup.
A day in the sun,
a shamble in Fremont.
We were planning on watching the movie,
hence the prep,
but plans changed.
To the Mercury.
Once again we waited.
Guested in,
to the dank smokey den.
Full of ugly people,
hiding in black.
Except the flame haired guy,
two women on his arm.
We shared.
Anger came later.
At the man with dragons.
An arm around her waist,
a twisted wrist.
Wish I had broke it.
Along with the candle in his temple,
hot wax in his eye.
Rage unknown!
T-Nah. Dog replaces u well better conversationalist :) just cant sleep
Who did I miss more?
Who causes me less strife?
T- We just got back from a day at the beach. How r u?
T-Sweet. She-ra and I r goin to a drag show tonight.
T-Sooo I have a wedding on saturday. Wanna go with?
T-Im passing on the wedding on sat. Highland games that day. Wanna go?
July 8
drive up to see my bitches,
dog sit.
Buy requested beer and rubbing alcohol,
take out the purple.
Passion.
Sleepless night for her,
ended up in recliner,
leave me undisturbed?
Although I sleep like the dead.
Wake her to tell her I'm leaving.
Want her to come,
go for a hike,
a lake,
the ocean.
Escape the heat.
She's running on few hours of sleep,
in multiple days.
Grumpy.
I think some nature therapy will help her.
She thinks I'm an asshole.
'You'll just hold me back."
Not my best choice in words.
The truth.
But it hurts.
I leave so she can rest.
T- Come back when ur done.
T-If you were nice u would have stayed. Nevermind. Dont come back.
me- if you treated me like a friend instead of a foe... I know you feel bad but hating on me wont help.
I really like you and want to be around you but there are times I wonder if i'm just your whipping boy fuck toy
I wonder why i keep coming back for me
T-Ur not a whipping boy. or the center of the universe, drama king. Believe it or not this has nothing to do with you. But u have no remorse or understanding of what this feels like. U think I can just shrug it off an go hiking, and when I cant you make me feel bad. Thats the last thing i need. I cant relate to ur lack of compassion. SO dont bother 'coming back for more'. So sorry to inconvenience u. But u knew what u got urself into beginning. Did I not warn you here.. so it is what it is.
me-I'm sorry you perceive it that way. GOing to take the blind dog for a walk then go to deception pass. I would love your company on the drive.
T-well im home. Otherwise, Id guess id be ur company, much to ur disdain it seems like.... anyway, have fun.
me- I want to share the experience with you but I don't wnat you to tax yourself. We will mosey along at an easy pace. I just think some nature will help.
Leaving my cousins. Want to come play in the water?
A couple hours on the beach,
a bridge,
no thoughts of jumping.
Just think it would hurt.
How tall is it?
Back to reality.
A couple beers,
a light snack.
A nap interupted,
by her text.
Go to her place.
Intending on just getting leash,
Thinking she once again hates me.
Smooth things over,
til things get too hot.
Tacos and pick tacos,
do not mix.
I make it up to her....
a few times.
Early riser,
tend to doggies.
Highland games.
Tool?
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