Duality

of all the emotions bouncing around

my brain

no one really sticks

there is anger

frustration

then introspection

do i really need to loosen up

am i vanilla

when she says she is

am i to take anything seriously

or do i already

i have enjoyed the company

the solitary quiet

the boiling rage

the sweaty jostling

a soft giggle

a hard slap

taken all together

viewed with hindsight

fun overall

I laugh at the ridiculous

the pain

the shrieks of pleasure

like Vegas or Disney

numerous sensations

rolled up into a package

though

not as gimmicky

i shudder at the feeling inside

I wonder........

is this a path of madness

righteousness??

now a break

self reflection

meditate

what do i want??

am i a man swimming in chains

slowly wearing down

a quiet empty abyss

yawning to pull me down

suck me to its depths

they say drowning is a return

in utero

9 months getting out,

a lifetime getting back in.

My tail twitches in amusement.