Sunday, November 7, 2010

The feeling from Down Under

A busy month behind and ahead.
Hope for a calm December,
but doubt it.
My calender shows it,
Aya ceremonies,
weddings,
concerts,
and a gimpy dog left in Idaho.
Since then studying,
working,
fraternizing.
Halloween was amazing.
Tried hustling for TWD party,
volunteered at zomBcon,
Shamen costume a hit.
Sat night Smoking Bill at Julia's,
many friends,
a drunk retard pawing me,
while others girls eyed me.
An Aussie friend of Kim's,
short skirt,
slutty baseball outfit.
Her 1st Halloween.
She also imbibed a bit much,
I was more than willing to help.
I was sober,
gave her a piggy back ride,
silky smooth legs
wrapped around my bare torso.
Squeals about her bum showing,
kissing on my neck and ears.
Devonn gimping,
the rest trailing.
At Jesse's complex we passionatly made out,
til the rest arrived.
Naughty!
D is a wasted mess.
Tips over the couch 1st thing.
I proceed to ignore her,
secretly flirt with Janelle.
Leave when the awkwardness is too much,
make my decision.
Take D home.
Walk her downstairs.
She falls 1st thing.
Flag down a cab,
walk her to her buildings gate,
tell her I'm not coming inside.
Go back to the party.
Unburdened!!
We have a seance for Jesse's dead neighbor.
Now the only 'awkwardness' is due to my past,
with Ellen.
It's fine in my head,
I assume in Ellen's,
not Janelle's.
Doesn't stop her from following me into the hall,
embracing,
carressing,
amazing.
Sobriety comes to my aid again.
Offer to drive the girls home,
no cab costs,
more opp for me with her.
I ended up spooning with her on the couch,
for the few hours until work.
Tried and denied.
Admirable.
The next day she went back to Vancouver.
I've been planning my trip since.
Everyday her texts start and end my day.
I'm elated.
I'm also realistic.
She's hot and 4 hours away.
Since then I've learned,
Jesse tried cockblocking me,
telling her I don't have a home
and a STD.
FAIL.
Ellen helped me out.
As I'm dancing at Julias
J-"I can't tell if your friend in the bones is hot."
E- "Yeah! Go for it. He's great in bed."
Her words, thus far-
Oct 31- 952a--Hey :-) no I didn'y :-( so tired but I can hopefilly sleep on the awesome bus! the cat was deteremined 2 keep me awake and she did! Yeh sounds like a plan!
952a--=Hopefully my life will be 2gether soon i miss having a semi normal life! Hope works not 2 bad 4 u although sucked you had 2 get up and leave early! Xo
1206p-Yeh would have been nice huh but got 2 earn money :-) sorry didnt come up with kim a little hung over right now :-( i look like crap
740p-Well I am safe and sound in teh land of canada again soooo tired though! If you wnat to msg me ull have to get me at this number til I'm back in the states. How was work? Xo
Nov 2- 314p-No way! Now thats scary and so weird poor dude! [referring the seance we had for Jesse's neighbor, who we found out had actually died.]
551pHow are u anyways?
1047p--Nite nite sweet dreams enjoy the rest of work
Nov 3- 1043a-Hey sorry I did getr missed call but had my phone on silent u must have just missed me :(
912p-Haha sorry I'm in a nice hot bubble bath by candle light and my phones on silent and yeh I hate recording those things lol oh yeah wat she say? How long were u guys together? [Ellen]
947p-Don't take offense I suck at talking on the phone lol
1013p-:( u suck with your phone even more! Nite Nick [I was cooking at the Dub and got caught up]
Nov 4- 242a--You crazy kid why u biking so late? I just figured u were at work! She missed the part bout telling me u were her ex which immediately I was like ok no go zone then she said no seriously its fine etc. I'm never normally cool with that though so took awhile! how long were u with her for? Oh yeah u planning a trip to korea? Do you know where I left my bat? Ha ha
251a- Ohh she also said u were good in bed :)
903a- Oh gotcha well she is a girl we tend to always want more! Its great u guys are still friends.
918a- Yeh I'm still friends with my exs but a lot of ppl don't get why I stay friends with them! U know why I have scratches on my right thigh did I fall into a tree of something? Lol last time I drink tequila I don't remember how much I had and where my bat went! Now I have to get a new one if I want to wear the costume again
941a- Hahahahah omg yes now I remember falling haha what a cluts! I remember u carrying me! Jessie also told me you had an sti! And I remember this guy talking to me then asking mm if he could kiss me and I said no he said are you sure haha. At least I remember bits! Oh yeh why a smile huh? [I replied about her legs wrapped around me and kissing my neck]
1009a- Oh yes I remember that do you mean my silky scratched legs lol how's ur friend btw? Heard from her?
507p- I've had such a shit day and need a massage and if I remember ur a pro at them too bad u live ages away huh-
605p- Hahaha no I wouldn't take u away from ur life and engagements and atm I'm staying with a fam friend so I wouldn't have anywhere for you to stay! U do know its at least a 3.5 hour drive yeh? Arghh I just want a job so I can get my life into order and stop stressing
728p- Hahaha I would not let u sleep in a tent! No its not odd its teh accent huh? What u studying?
807p- I've decided to become a stripper lol good money then I can get a place
815p- Lol really? Well would be a way to get ppl to kno me
837p- All for it then?
858p- Hahaha ud need a week to work on me! Listen to u! It's only been 4 days miss me huh?
935p- its tempting! But its a no for now wait til I get myself set up somewhere then u owe me a massage but ur not allowed to hurt lol I have a lot of knots! I do want to see u though I've never had someone drive 3.5 hours just to see me before lol oh I'm sure u can be! What do u study? Heard from that sweet girl?
957p- Oh nice when is it? That's good then sucks for her! If u haven't noticed I hate walking on ppls feet! What u thinking?
1011p- Mm yeh ur puppy :( poor little munchkin I remember you telling me about her! I love animlas I walked into a pet store today and wanted to buy all the puppies and cats :) mm its a trait that can sucka t times but I'm happy with who I am :) so u have no life atm
1046p- Well busy man ill leave u to it! take care xo
Nov 5-1125p- Today was much better!
Nov 6- 1206a-Hahah sounds like fun! Magic? My day consisted of job hunting and my first ice hockey game in which the mascot confessed his love for me haha
516a- Oh hey no fair u could have just let me believe I was special! Now I'm just like everyone else! Sorry guess I passed out before u! Nite
953a- Good morning Hump fest? Hmm not sure yet I'm such a bum I just got up!
1030a- We have sexpo in sydney once a year doesn't sell out though its a massive venue! Sounds like fun!
1044a- Oh come on going with a lesbian is so much better!
1058a- Mmm and remembering is a bad thing? Hey maybe ull meet another aussie :)
1151am- Haha true like last sat :)ok have fun xo
521p- Nice red wine sitting in front of fire soo good!
536p- Nice so u a good cook?
908p- Oh yeh well natures getting alittle cold now! I hat efreezing my butt off! You know I've never seen snow fall and only touched snow once! So if ur a good cook and give great massage why are you single?
1119p- I hope ur having a fabulous time :)
....11/29
The conversation has continued.
For better or worse,
she still calls,
although I confuse and frustrate.
Chocolate stawberries,
17 y.o. dog 2 years gone.
Missing wine and bath time.
She misses me...
and my wicked ways.
She hates men,
I'm rude for numerous reasons,
I worry her,
she doesn't know about us.
SHe wants to go out on a date,
she doesn't want an open relationship,
she is willing to come see me.
My living situation is known.
A busted tailbone at 7.
I didn't seem interested in her day,
I'm too busy for her.
She's been last priority too many times.
She can't sleep thinking about me.
'Distance makes her double question things.
We would be better as friends.
We're so different in every way!
I like u but there is always something upsetting me.'
I reply I'm calm like a monk.
She's just a stress case.
Constantly blowing me up
'I'm a shmuck lol'
She's glad she met me.
'I may get angry withu doesn't mean I think bad of you!
Mozzies LOVE me!
Still not sure about us btw'
Every guy she dates starts working out after they meet.
WTF am I getting myself into?
I think of the potential,
but damn!!
Haven't even made her squeal in delight,
and that's usually when the crazy switch gets switched.
On top of everything else right now,
this is just more silly stress.