Thursday, May 20, 2010

Duality



of all the emotions bouncing around
my brain
no one really sticks
there is anger
frustration
then introspection
do i really need to loosen up
am i vanilla
when she says she is
am i to take anything seriously
or do i already
i have enjoyed the company
the solitary quiet
the boiling rage
the sweaty jostling
a soft giggle
a hard slap
taken all together
viewed with hindsight
fun overall
I laugh at the ridiculous
the pain
the shrieks of pleasure
like Vegas or Disney
numerous sensations
rolled up into a package
though
not as gimmicky
i shudder at the feeling inside
I wonder........
is this a path of madness
righteousness??
now a break
self reflection
meditate
what do i want??
am i a man swimming in chains
slowly wearing down
a quiet empty abyss
yawning to pull me down
suck me to its depths
they say drowning is a return
in utero
9 months getting out,
a lifetime getting back in.

My tail twitches in amusement.


Wednesday, May 5, 2010

My new tryst

Erotic arts,
Joose loosed,
a day of insight,
translates into
conversation starters.
Swans and flowers in sync,
she sees 1st love,
infatuation,
twitterpation.
That shiny gleam,
the new relationship smell.
She sees me.
I charm my way,
back to her friends,
a night flies by,
I sleep for 10 minutes,
rush home,
work like a zombie,
home to nap.
SEAF to reconnect.
Find a meat head on her arm.
Disappointment.
I wander,
meet new friends,
pop a pill for sensory enhancement.
Help heel abused feet,
network.
I woman climaxes under my touch,
under two writhing 'friends.'
Run into Taryn,
reconnect,
sort out the 'date' situation.
My confidence is resolved.
Until....
she is making out with him and her.
I go with the open spirit of the night.
Knowing who she will end it with.
Hoping.
Lose Taryn
at least its to her friends.
still....
I find the other her,
work my reflex magic,
'Would I be too forward asking for your number?'
Plans of a menois a troi- step 1.
Prove my skill.
Show the date.
She is disturbed by my demon eyes.
Home bound.
Reconnect,
bring home for another sleepless night.
At least I had foresight.
Work and rally North.
Disturb another roommate.
Road rage fueled drive home.
One day later and I'm back.
hooked...mutually.
Runaways,
comics,
baked salmon,
Claw marks,
music,
past proclivities revealed,
she's shocked I'm not.
Hedonist,
choking,
yelled at for sleeping.
I explain human physiology.
Wake up blissed and marked.
Plan the next few days of varied adventures.